The Ticking Clock

I'm feeling rather in limbo this week; not exactly sure why. It's not like I'm having to make any big life decisions right this moment, but I feel the clock of my life is ticking. I guess it could be that there are some decisions on the horizon that could change things for me. Some I'm excited about, some have me a bit scared, some have yet to be decided.

I returned to work this week, albeit a short work week due to the Memorial Day holiday. It was busy but felt good to stay focused. I'm still enjoying my weekly yoga class. It makes for a very long Wednesday, but it is so worth it. And I stopped by a restaurant to see some friends visiting from Michigan this week. It was really nice to see them all, but did serve as a reminder that I'm alone now.  

And I think that may be part of my issue. Is this ticking clock taking me away from Vern and the life we had together? We were always "Vern & Dianne" ... for 41 years ... I'm not sure I know who Dianne alone is yet. Not sure I want to. Some days, yes - I think I can see me being happy again, taking some classes, doing some things I've not had time to pursue previously. 

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase"

Martin Luther King, Jr.

But other days ... oh how I wish he was still here. Truth be told, I wish that every day but I remind myself that he's in a better place - and I do know I will see him again.