I returned to work this week, albeit a short work week due to the Memorial Day holiday. It was busy but felt good to stay focused. I'm still enjoying my weekly yoga class. It makes for a very long Wednesday, but it is so worth it. And I stopped by a restaurant to see some friends visiting from Michigan this week. It was really nice to see them all, but did serve as a reminder that I'm alone now.
And I think that may be part of my issue. Is this ticking clock taking me away from Vern and the life we had together? We were always "Vern & Dianne" ... for 41 years ... I'm not sure I know who Dianne alone is yet. Not sure I want to. Some days, yes - I think I can see me being happy again, taking some classes, doing some things I've not had time to pursue previously.
But other days ... oh how I wish he was still here. Truth be told, I wish that every day but I remind myself that he's in a better place - and I do know I will see him again.